what, oh what will happen?

Well at this point, we are forced to quit treatment this week unless something shifts. The thing that would have to shift is 1. Winning the lottery, 2. Doug's refusal to dip any further into his retirement funds or 3. The insurance company spontaneously decides to stop being assholes and pays us some portion of what we have paid out already. Unfortunately while the treatment may quit, the cancer probably won't. That is if the cancer is still there. We will only know that if Doug has a PET scan, something that wasn't scheduled for another week. At this point, I don't know what will happen. I do know that we will not accept turning to conventional treatment just so that the insurance company will pay. We both know beyond a shadow of a doubt that Doug would not survive even one full dose of the drugs. We also won't be bullied. So I will be thankful that he is well and healing right now and I will have to leave tomorrow in God's hands, mine aren't big enough.