Grace

This morning my marriage got a major shot in the arm. By just loving Doug where he is at and not trying to control this crazy ride that we are on, I realized the rewards of just letting go. We had a discussion about what to do about the dilemma of finances and continuing treatment, a loving, calm, grown-up discussion. I still don't know what he will decide to do, but it is not up to me. At the treatment center today, the head nurse sat down with me and asked about our plans and what they could do to ease our anxiety and stress, also how they could change Doug's treatment plan so that it was less expensive and he could continue treatment a little longer. In that conversation, I said that we couldn't even afford the next chemo treatment on Thursday as it cost $3000.00, she figured out that we had been charged for the Retuxin that we had already purchased through our insurance, so we ended up with a $3600.00 credit at the center and an adjustment in the protocol so we can afford another few days of treatment!! He had a great day with treatment. I had a great day learning how to ferment things, made an awesome Kim Chee, some almond cheese, and coconut yogurt. I started taking B-12 by injection last night, and I had a lot more energy tonight, enough to prepare a raw pumpkin pie, raw granola, not tuna pate, fresh almond milk and am thinking about putting together a kim chee before I go to bed, maybe I will just relax and finish my trashy novel instead.