Not Tuna Pate.

I did a hands-on class today, 4 of us made pates, not tuna, not salmon and an Indian pate. While I am still on the fast, I couldn't taste anything but it smelled delicious and there were smiles on the faces of all my compatriots as they chewed and smacked their lips. I am so appreciative of the skills that I am learning and happy that I am also getting to appreciate on a new level the talents and wisdom that I already possess. I get excited and happy when I think of the future and am pretty happy with the present with the exceptions of my husband's pain, my daughters anxiety and health difficulties and my son's and daughter in laws unhappiness. Those things weigh on my mind and frequently make me weep a bit and worry at strange times like out of the middle of nowhere and at 2:30 in the morning. Inspite of those trials I am happy now and joyously anticipating the next leg of this wild journey that we have embarked on.
Doug had a horrendous night last night, pain throughout his body, achey, restless legs and insomnia secondary to the crappy way he felt. He was up and down all night, walking around the neighborhood a 2AM, soaking his legs in the cold pool at 3. He was close to tears most of the morning, lack of restful sleep making him feel hopeless and beaten down. We took some extra precautions and preparations to try to insure that he gets the sleep that he needs tonight, extra Magnesium, Arnica, Benadryl and if all that doesn't turn the trick, the clinic supplied us with a syringe of Toradol for pain that I will give him when he is ready for bed. I am praying that the combination wins him some solid sleep.
I had an appointment with two of the MD's that work at the Oasis, one who is in an internist and the other who is just starting this week, at 73 years old with 47 years of doctoring behind him, he is the first MD in the country who went on to train in and practice homeopathy in his medical practice. They were wonderful to talk to, respectful, interested and honoring of me and my journey, a far cry from any new patient interview that I have ever had in all 55 years of my life. Together we outlined the different health issues that needed attention and determined which ones I wanted their help with (which were all of them). My primary doctor then outlined for me several options to choose from for treatment and thoroughly explained the pro, cons and research of each option, leaving me to make my choice of what lab tests, supplements, medications and treatments that I thought would work for me. I shook hands with both doctors and heard once again from eacj of them how much they admired me for rising above my hardships and the progress that my spirit and body have made thus far. I walked out of the office room on air, feeling heard and acknowledged for knowing what I know about my body and its needs. It was one of the most helpful, empowering and enjoyable doctors visit that I have ever had. I am looking forward to the changes that my informed choices are going to make in my general well being.
I also got to work on another staff member, which was very rewarding. When we got home, I got a package from Janny, a new flouncy skirt and a cotton cardigan, both in great shades of teal. She is a thoughtful girl!! I may wear them tomorrow. 3 more days of fasting and we get to eat solids, looking forward to it but not feeling badly at having juice fasted for 18 days so far. Time to make my nightly run through the kitchen and packing up the bags with all the things that I need to bring to the clinic tomorrow to fulfill promises made throughout the day today. Oils, books, my records and all the gluten free baking mixes that we are ridding the pantry of. So good night and sleep tight.