It's 9:30 and I am up, paper read, water drunk, showered, dressed and ready to run down to the farmers market to pick up some organic veggies. I was almost out the door for the errand when I checked in on Doug. He is miserable from his gut not working for the past 5 days, so on top of the enema, colon massage and cleansing supplements we tried last night, I gave him another enema just now, he is still in bed moaning after releasing it so , I imagine that it didn't bring him any relief from his suffering. Between the pain pills, not enough water, and the anorexia, his belly is in a fine mess. He said to me this morning, that now he understands why the elderly complain so bitterly about their bowels.
I am just back from administering a second enema to a sad sore man, who is now crying out as he sits and tries to perform a natural body function that many take for granted. There is no words to describe how humbling and disheartening this particular indignity is for a person. There is no way out but through so to speak. The cramping, and literal gut wrenching that he is suffering as his body refuses to work correctly are all but unbearable. So I am going to go rub his belly again and see if I can help. I wish I could say it was a shitty start to the day, but so far, nothing.
Thoughts become things. When you feel hopeful and loved, things improve. When the odds seem to be stacked against you, do something abnormal...like laugh! If this seems impossible, it is not! Be conscious and choose your reactions through your actions. I am so glad to see that you are blogging your heart out.
ReplyDeleteHow blessed you are to have helpful tools that extend beyond most people's imaginations. Use them with faith, hope, and love. Embrace this life experience and turn it into your most triumphant story. Remember to focus on your plan instead of what is so obviously in your face. Your plan is inspired and it will work. There is no room for any doubts about this.
You both are so loved for your loving commitment to all life!