I think I used to feel like this.

I think that new replacement hormones, B-12 injections, a clean raw diet and a lot of letting go emotionally and physically have combined to have me feeling like myself for the first time in a long time. Like a few years! I woke up this morning and had energy and happiness. I was able to get bathed, dressed, coiffed and out the door to shop for TP, cat food and a People magazine for our plane ride next week. I also dropped Franky off early, returned some library books and picked up some more. So I was ahead of the game before we left for the treatment center today. I spent the morning cleaning out the car, straightening my purse and bags and making notes to myself for things to do. Then after a couple of very pleasant conversations with patients and holding court with 4 of the nurses, I got a gift of an awesome massage. I also had a great conversation with one of the staff. We were the last patients to leave the center, and one of Doug's friends from his Shaking medicine shaman certification course showed up to sing for Douglas, he sang three songs a cappella, it was very sweet of him and there were tears of happiness and acceptance. We had a pleasant drive home. We picked up the boy on the way home and fed everyone with four legs when we arrived here. I made a zippy pesto sauce for our zucchini noodles, we had supper and I did a couple more loads of laundry. I have felt cheerful throughout the day and have actually had to hold myself back from doing too much. Could it be that I get to get me back? Still a little early to be certain, but I am keeping my fingers crossed. We'll see how I feel tomorrow.